hello

just a quick hello. the thing is i have so much to say but it does not seem to want to come out.

i am well, the weather has been lovely. i am obsessed with japanese greens, music and plums. lots and lots of plums.

stolen moments

i have blueberry bushes i dream about . how is it that i have been to busy to pick the ripen fruit.

the birds have been feasting and so has the deer and maybe a black bear will come soon.  that is grace she is dog in case you were wondering. she is playing underneath the tall cedars, i dream about them too.

sometimes i walk along our forest line, wildflowers emerge, unedified berries hang from trees, bugs eat what they like and make no secret of it. wild blackberries ripen their location have been noted to memory. on this day as we gather blueberries, a colour palette starts to form, deep purples, blues, mauves and greens, oh the greens when looking through tem they can make mid afternoon look like the darkest of hours.

there was happiness, i can tell by these photographs i had found a minute or two of peace.

how are you dear friends, is the summer what you had hoped....

* that is baba  recently  named by elle & dylan, a peking duck he is our largest and softest.

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trying to quiet the mind

k is away in maine, i miss him. i had a lovely Indian dinner with my friend Sheila last night.

i have been packing all day. tonight i will meet Sheila again about a photo shoot for her new company, she is brave and i have no doubt of it's success. I have thirty pages of Jane Eyre left i must finish soon, because i would like to see the movie in the next few days. 

dear friends tell me what you have been up to, i would really like to hear about it.

oh dear, it's killing me

I have been dying to tell you some news( no i am not pregnant)  so i have stayed away because i was afraid i would let it slip. i promise you in the next few days i will tell you why i have been away!

for now i am asking  the universe to listen to my commands:)

i have posted some of these pics before, i just felt like seeing some color.

when you meet gypsies on the dirt road!

our weekend. 

we had only seven dollars to spend having over extended ourselves that week, january, february never easy on a farm. I was not worried, for i had already planned for home made soups, hummus, apple crisp. we decided saturday morning to head to the cafe and blow it all:) on our way we drove down the dirt road, the sun was bright, yet it was bitterly cold. i was not feeling it since i had just spent the last two hours working hard doing chores.  as we drove down the dirt road i got my camera ready, incase a muscovy duck would be blocking the way or a tree branch would catch the sun just right but what i found instead was a herd of sheep.  i have to tell you i could not contain my excitement,  this was a dirt road after all and the farm was that way and where did they come from i wondered out loud.  i jumped out of the car( it was still moving) and just snapped away. they looked at me with the same questions i had just asked. they were studying me and i them- no that is not true i was admiring them, falling in love with them, specially him, do you see him. they were like a band of gypsies, ragged, dishevelled but so handsome. i was in heaven.  this was the biggest gift, i stood there wanting to speak to them, i swear they were so alive, they seemed so wise with stories to tell.  i watched them go then ran back into the car so giddy, saying "honey can you believe it, can you believe them, can you believe how lucky we are".

the rest of the weekend was full of photographic opportunities it seemed, peeking through the window i would see k, picking up the chickens, gathering eggs and i would yell out the window stand still i will be right there with my camera... and i was there in that moment.

brighter still

come a little closer, i am going to have whisper this whole post. i think that path you see right up there in the corner is leading me to some place wonderful. shh not to loud now. i have fallen in love with january, i know those who know me will say but you have always been in love with january and that is true, this time it is different, yes, absolument. it is as if january and i have collaborated, somehow together we are twirling in the snow and the warmth light of winter afternoons. i have secretly placed wishes in the snow covered stones, i have written promises to myself on black walls. i have read things that people who have lived hundreds of years before me put on paper, and yet they feel as they are my own and i have taken them with me to bed, under down felt comforters i have read under moonlight, my life has been made brighter and i know will be brighter still, just wait...

winter green

Hi, i wanted to make this day( date) special after all it is 11.1.11 i got married on 1.11. truth i just found myself eating to many cookies, driving around and getting lost but not in a good way. running to the grocery store to get provision for the storm but leaving the grocery store with two zucchinis, egg, plant and onion (it better not be a big storm). a friend/blogger is coming this weekend to take pictures of winter scenes on the farm, visit winter markets and go antiquing but i am nervous, that nothing will be good enough. 

i hope she sees what i see, she is lovely and will becoming with her little girl and maybe she will show me a thing or two on how to take good pictures, maybe we will laugh a lot, discover cool places and make good memories, maybe it will be okay , better than okay.

* i meant the dates are similar- i was married the first of november-1.11

when happy becomes sad.

i had so much to write about. i was going to write about the coop and how this weekend i had did things i never did, made doors from scratch, nesting boxes , how i was able to keep it simple and beautiful, i was going to thank the people who helped. i was going to tell you about the pouring rain last night and k and i with yellow rain coats and flashlights in the dark gathering ducks, wellies that had three inches of water in them  and being drenched to the bone but happy and funny about  it all . but instead i woke up walked to the coop and found one of the ducks laying still on the ground, my dear friends i sometimes do not believe in goodness of gods but( i do believe in the goodness of people). i cried and cried my heart sank to deepest of places, i asked my self what happened and played every scenario in my head, i believe my ducks got scared of there new environment and maybe trampled her i do not know but it hurts so much- this poor little thing died and i can not help but think it is because of me.

 i feel so bad for her, it was supposed be a better life for her not  the end of one. i am terrible sad.

the opened door

it has been raining here for two days now, it is not a complaint since the rain is much needed here at the farm. my mind has not stopped thinking, under a night time sky i pace with thoughts. things happening so fast yet i am reacting to them as if they are not happening at all. they are good changes so please do not worry, i just have to ask why suddenly i am okay with it. a grown up voice in my head says "be wise and know that it might still come with heartache" i know this is all vague to you dear readers it can be nothing else at this time, all i can say is, it is odd to me that one can keep a door closed so tight and one day sunddenly with no explanation to oneself  you walk to that door and open it.

dear readers i love  having you here, do you know how much your presence makes my day richer.

* i think the rain might be stopping since at this very moment a symphony of birds are outside my window!

the chill deepens my love for new england

the last few days the air has been cool, the sun high in the sky i would be okay if this was what our summer weather would be like all the time. the horses love it as well, they graze all day long without bugs, the ducks dive into the pond as if its renewed freshness is another pond all together. the air in the house is perfect and i loved that i had to pull out a blanket last night while i read my book. i do like it here and although i do complain about the hot humid weather in new england iwill never complain of the cold from cool spring days to snow covered ones.

this morning is extra bright because of this surprise over at frolic!

little lives all around us.

i have three ducklings and three chicks in the house that we received from our neighbors. my hen sasha just gave birth to four chicks and she is sitting on three more eggs. she rejected a chick this morning it is so tiny( pictures maybe another day) and is doing good under the heat lamp. this is so new to us but it is so lovely to watch. we could see the tiny beaks coming through the shell-miracle -it all feels like miracles. k. and i are amazed by the whole process and we are definitely acting like grandparents!

*the rooster is liev he was a gift from my neighbor we introduced him to sasha a gift from another neighbor- i guess at the farm you do not give a pie or a bottle wine when you move into the neighborhood!) but she was already knocked up with seven tiny eggs and it looks like many different fathers. but for a rooster he is so kind and has sat with her through most of her brooding and he is kind to the babies- ( sasha was already named so i named him liev)
*sorry about the bad pictures