wishing for snow and a thank you

I have been craving the snow, i wanted it to fall after the coop was finished and now i just want it to fall. i am from canada and even though i have been here in the united states for a long time now i do not think i will ever get used a christmas without snow. as if all the christmas colours were made to contrast the snow white and without it i am a tad confused and behind in the holiday spirit. I promise myself that this weekend i will work really hard to make this home one that is worthy of celebration and family.

I would also like to thank you dear readers for all the beautiful comments you guys made me blush times  a million, i am still unclear why i did that but i know i desperately want to feel those things you so kindly bestowed on me. I also would like to thank you for the comments left about the duck i wish i had named it, i wished for all of things to have been a little different.

so let's start( okay perhaps you all have started) but i am ready to open the holidays by decorating, baking and making but first feed the horses and early dentist appointment for a broken tooth( i know crazy, i am a teeth clencher of the worse kind).

this is the most gutsy thing i have ever done

okay so here it goes, the most gutsy thing i have done on laporte rouge or pretty much anywhere is show that many pictures of myself at once. why have i chosen to do so, first i was awarded an award that would talk about my beauty regime (ha let's just say i would  have liked to answer tea, olive oil, probiotics and working outside) and two because i have had a serious bout of low self esteem( i really do) that  has paralysed me the last few months i would love to share more about it but truth be told i go into a bad place when i do and i am tired of it. i have been unhappy with the way i have looked for far too long now and hope to some how break that cycle- so please forgive me for the me overload! wait why would someone with low self esteem show that many pictures of herself I HAVE NO CLUE perhaps shock therapy:)

I won a 'I love your blog' prize from beautiful and talented  sofia, if you have not visited sofia at "etre soi" you are missing out. etre soi means be yourself i think that is lovely and powerful!

The rules of the prize are:
- do an entry with the prize
- answer the questions
- give the prize to 10 blogs

1. Why did you create the blog?
i had started a blog prior to this one to process some things i was going through that , i had just closed my shop and wanted to gather pretty things for grey sky days, slowly it became about what i saw daily and where i live.

2. What kind of blogs do you follow?
i follow blogs that have a real genuine feel to them, that take my breath away, move me and make me think.

3. Favourite makeup brand?
i do not wear any( i probably should)

4. Favourite clothing brand?
oh gosh. i like the classic style of ralph lauren( it's a good brand for a farm girl)also apart style asked me to be an ambassador for there brand(more on that later)

5. Your indispensable makeup product?
patricia wexler regenerating serum

6. Your favourite colour?
white, more specifically snow white

7. Your perfume?
i do not wear any, but like washing with citrus or mint.

8. Your favourite film?
camille claudel, she changed my life or perhaps what i meant to say  i began to understand who i am from this film.

9. What country would you like to visit and why?
mongolia because, i literally am moved to tears every time i see a photograph taken there.

10. Make the last question and answer to yourself:

why did you except to do this

because i need too get out of my shell, because something has ot happen and i was honoured by sofia's request.

and the 10 blogs I give the prize to are:

if its  all right i would like to give this prize to all of you my readers.

distractions

i have been a little distracted as of late. I promise to return soon. 

things i am loving right now

looking out my window and seeing the horses graze

the chickens that are now laying in basket in my mudroom

the coop that is almost finished

the woodpeckers, blue jays( hundreds) and cardinals that look like ornaments all over the farm

that i finally learned how to knit and having people who want me to knit them things

the fact that i am being proactive on  certain somethings

k's friend sean and the kindness he show us

george for helping, always 

rich for the warm fires and tea

jutta for knowing my heart belongs to star and for teaching to knit

my mum for being

what i would like you to know

i went to animal shelter yesterday to help prepare for a fundraiser

all the cats and dogs in the the cages made me cry, honestly all night i could not catch my breath

if you ever thought about adopting, do it i guarantee you it is the most giving thing you can give yourself, when you are looking at your holiday wish list why not think about it, the joy they bring you is so incredible and  special.

the opened door

it has been raining here for two days now, it is not a complaint since the rain is much needed here at the farm. my mind has not stopped thinking, under a night time sky i pace with thoughts. things happening so fast yet i am reacting to them as if they are not happening at all. they are good changes so please do not worry, i just have to ask why suddenly i am okay with it. a grown up voice in my head says "be wise and know that it might still come with heartache" i know this is all vague to you dear readers it can be nothing else at this time, all i can say is, it is odd to me that one can keep a door closed so tight and one day sunddenly with no explanation to oneself  you walk to that door and open it.

dear readers i love  having you here, do you know how much your presence makes my day richer.

* i think the rain might be stopping since at this very moment a symphony of birds are outside my window!

the washington county fair

we had a nice time at the fair. we went on the roller coaster and i screamed like the girl i am. k won dylan a jersey yankees!( and you call yourself a red socks fan k!) we listened to a great band, saw adorable livestock. tasted a few things i can not admit too. we had a good time even sat in a school bus as it drove us to our car- that was the weirdest nostalgic ride- never did like the school bus!

a hike and gun shots (a rant)

this weekend we did a small hike in arcadia state park, it was lovely but i could not help be distracted by shots, yes gun shots from a firing range somewhere nearby. it made me dive deep into thought, i started to think about off shore driling, removing wolves form endangered species list, whaling( hunting of whales) allowing guns in national parks and not to mention many more. i feel somewhat confused and disappointed in this list, you see k and i feel misled. i believed that the things in this list would be protected by this administration, i believed that those things, the environment, animal welfare and so on was fundamentally democratic? did we not ask where he stood on these issues. please do not get me wrong there is so much i do agree with and understand that perhaps he( obama) must pick his battles but this list is sounding much more like it belongs to the tea party! and those are mean *@%&*^*!( oh man, i know but i just had too)

happiness in a walk

today i spend the day with my love k. it was perfect. we walked and made discoveries of a farm that once was. the sun and shade on our walk was welcoming. there was little wild flowers that made my heart happy, the harvested corn fields glistened in the sun. i felt a live, i felt lucky and love for my life companion.

summertime!

when it looks like this

Today we went to pick up my nephew Guylan (yes kid nation) it was hot but i could not rush home, i needed to stop along the way and take a walk so i, we did. thank goodness for when the mind calls for a time out, because it looks like this!

* the green algae took my breath away my pictures do not do it justice. i can picture floating in it, i know crazy but i can:) there was a million shade of green!