Tuesday, January 12

tolstoy is my love




tolstoy my giant beautiful horse is not well. the last few nights have been difficult for him. did i tell you we rescued him from slaughter "the meat guy" he was in very poor condition but the good people at penn state medical school took care of him and neer the rescue organization brought him to me. he made my dream come true, the one of owning my own horse. he fills my days with wonder and he inspires me. to see such a large beautiful animal in pain is unbearable to watch. he has had two rough nights but good days. we treated has if it was colic, all the signs where pointing to that, but that he went through it two nights in a row sends a different red flag. for those who do not know colic is the number one killer of horses, it is where their is a blockage and a belly ache and their stomach ends up turning. I am worried, i am not built for this, never was. k and i had to go through cancer with our two golden retrieves and loose them three months apart just a little while ago which really caused so much pain that my life changed drastically. I am hoping tolsoy is different, i am hoping he is the only horse that simply has a stomach ache that will go away, that maybe he was mad that i left for a little while or maybe that i fed everyone before him the last two nights. ironically what he is experiencing is what my sister spent weeks at the hospital for, is that odd?

dear friends, it seems that i am always asking for your prayers, please forgive me if this post is a mess my tears have taken over.

ps. dear higher being enough is enough please

28 comments:

Amanda Nicole said...

I am certainly sending positive thoughts to you and your beautiful giant. Seeing beloved animals in pain is truly unbearable.

kendalee said...

nadia, holding you and tolstoy in my thoughts... be brave dear heart, be brave.

tara said...

he is truly handsome. strength and hope to you both.

Faff Around said...

Oh your poor poor boy. I will pray that he feels better really soon and you too.

Amy A said...

nadia,keeping you and tolstoy in my thoughts. poor boy.

cindy said...

praying for you and tolstoy, nadia.

S. Etole said...

blessings of healing for your heart and his body ...

bigBANG studio said...

you got my tears by the end of the post. and my, you really captured his soul in that last photograph of his beautiful eye. saying prayers. sending hugs. heal up, old boy!

jules @ The Diversion Project said...

So sorry to hear that, i hope that he gets better soon.

Sending 100% positive thoughts and hopes your way.

jules

Cherie said...

I will think of him.

aerussell said...

I will be praying for you and for Tolstoy. It's so hard when animals are in pain, hard to deal with and hard to watch. *hugs* I'm sending lots of positive energy your way.

Caroline said...

Sending you my prayers, thoughts and LOVE!! xo

cindy* said...

wishing and hoping the very best for tolstoy and for you too nadia..xo.

Johanna said...

Holding Tolstoy in my heart. Love to you.

Jane Flanagan said...

Oh Tolstoy! I don't even know him and I already love him. Sending well wishes his way.

erin said...

sending all my best your way!

Valentina said...

Sweetie... big hug.
OFCOURSE! We are here together, how can we not suffer when we see our loved ones suffering?
We are here for you, so you can be there for him.

Ann Marie said...

prayers, energy, heart are all coming your way. loves.

GloamingDesigns said...

i'll be sending prayers of healing to you and tolstoy all day. he is beautiful!

in another lifetime said...

Hope everything went ok last night and that you all have a better day today. Hang in there Nadia. Keep me posted!

avant garde said...

those big horse eyes. he says so much with a glance. thinking of you and that big beautiful boy tolstoy. keep us posted!

Lobster and swan said...

thinking and hoping everything will be okay for you and Tolstoy, we are always here to keep you strong.

J

littlemebigyou said...

Nadia, we are thinking of you and Tolstoy and wishing for the best. Hang in there, both of you!

daysofserendipity said...

Sometimes the world is so sad that things seem unbearable all at once. I'm so sorry to hear about Tolstoy. I am praying for you to have an overwhelming peace, because I know it's what He dearly wants for you.

My Farmhouse Kitchen said...

Oh, I just saw this...That beautiful Tolstoy....


Oh, I am thinking of you, dear one...and your beautiful boy...

I spent all of December crying over Buddy..my dog....but he pulled through and we are taking it a day at a time...i KNOW how much we LOVE them...so very very much...

I am thinking good thoughts and saying prayers for you both...

With Love,
Kary and Buddy

endlesslyelusive said...

That last shot breaks my heart. Horses have such expressive eyes.

Wishing you and Tolstoy the best,

Emily

Angie Muresan said...

Tolstoy is a beauty! Hope he's feeling better.

Botany's Desire said...

Wow, what a beautiful horse. I love their large and soothing eyes. I wish the best for him and peace for you.

Sandra