Thursday, November 29

hush

there is part of me that wants to hush everything, put a finger to my lips and say shhhh and yet there is part of me that wants to say everything empty all my thoughts, fears and hopes. i started to think is there anyone one who has that person in their life that they say everything too. I have some great people in my life but not one those, although i have no doubt they would except that role but it is i who has trouble.

Tomorrow will be epic, i can not say more even if i tried for even for myself as the very thought of it comes to surface i quiet it down. we all have things that change the path or confirm the path we are on, i wonder how many of those we get in out life time. i wrote those very words to friend via text yesterday, can i just say how much i hate texting i feel like it is some sort of demotion in friendship in a way,  anyhow as i wrote that down i thought surely i have had many path changing events but more i thought about it more i realized some of what i thought was huge disappeared shadowed by greater things.

I found this and something about it lifted my spirits, "stars in still water" by Jonsi, i know how to see those, i do not know how it came to be, perhaps my  mother teaching me to see beauty in everything.

*sophie and grooming created such a ethereal scene.

8 comments:

Tess Fine said...

Hi Nadia! I apologize for leaving this as a comment. I couldn't find your email address anywhere.

I'm a photographer for Houzz.com, based in Massachusetts. I'm looking for a New England home to feature in my next spread. Your home is PERFECT.

Here is the last spread I did for Houzz:

http://www.houzz.com/ideabooks/4986772/list/My-Houzz--Collected-and-Cozy-in-New-Hampshire

If you'd be interested, I just need to get approval from the editor. I'm positive she will love your home as much as I do. Then, you and I would arrange a time for me to come photograph your home.

You can reach me at tesslfine@gmail.com

I sincerely hope to hear from you!

Sweet Life Farm said...

You have moved me to tears, as the rain pours down so heavy it is dark. I have lived these words and still, I forget. What I thought I could not face, speak of or find my way through opened up my life to more loveliness than I could at that time see. I hold this wish for you, beautiful friend. It’s a path through the forest when we have no way of knowing what is around the bend.

And speak of beauty, what a picture of Sophie!

Dawn said...

Love you.

Rebecca said...

Lovely pictures as always. I love your view. I'm exited for whatever you're awaiting, and wish you much happiness in whatever direction that path follows. A lot of us are still in the dark forest, looking for that shining path...

the wild magnolia said...

The photographs are just right, the words are deep and questioning..real.

Tracey Ayton Photography said...

Nadia I sat here and read and reread your post, looked at your photos over and over again. A sense of calm came over me. This is beautiful. I can't tell you enough how bad I want to come and visit your lovely farm and take pics alongside such a talented writer and photographer. Perhaps one day it will happen.

Sarah said...

I suppose recognizing the events that change our paths, is the hardest part. Sometimes it's the littlest thing, something that may seems so insignificant that can change us in the most tremendous way. The gifts given to us when we've given up hoping, are the ones to be thankful for. I hope you are on a good path...ready for even greater things to come into your life, ready to reach out and wrap yourself around something really beautiful.
Though I don't know you...I feel as if I do and I always have an ear and a shoulder to lend....
Sarah

anonymous said...

My sis...this post got me! It's like no matter how many friendships, no matter how strong, there's only me who knows all of me, my secrets, my fears, my sadness, my greatest joys. I feel I have been blessed with the ability to not always have the need to share all with others...yep, there's parts of me you don't even know, parts that maybe I don't even want to face myself or just simply want to live it the way I see it without outside views that can change it, is that okay? Is it not?...I question at times, have I made myself a rock? Will I always feel like it is burdon to show others, the good, the bad and the ugly and will I ever have a "perfectly" healthy confidence level where I don't have to question anything, my thoughts, my feelings and all that is within my being...I don't want to have filters on my heart, mind and voice, I don't want to sugar coat my life away to be the least burdon possible or to dramatize my life to get attention, I just want to live an open and honest life and those who accept me will and those who don't NEVER WILL...I don't want to second guess should I think it? Should I feel it and most importantly, should I voice it...we come from the same place you and I and what I want to say at this very moment without filters, You and I have a genuiness that is rarely seen or even understood...I know it and I am proud of it and I really am done with hiding that part of myself in order to continue to see it the way I see it without outside views coming in to change it. We CARE...We Love...We share...We seek authenticity..We need to keep it real and that's awesome!!!!!!woohooooo that's awesome!!!!!!!!

Keep on rockin' in the free world! Sista!