Monday, March 26

taking a time

dear friends, i am hoping you had a lovely weekend. I spent mine in montreal and i had a good time.
I am on the hill and a cold air brought some snow flakes, nothing will land but it is odd by tonight it will be seventy degrees colder than just a few days ago. I am very okay with that since, i always felt  like i could use a little more winter.

I am going to have to take time away from the blog. I have a few personal matters that need attention, yet my biggest reason is the fact that i simply have spent to much time on the machine as of late. I have wanted to sit with a pen and paper and finish letters to send with packages for to long now that i must make it a priority. i have been thinking a lot and many of these thoughts are brand new and others were of the me i had forgotten about, both those things have made me happy and hopeful. i also came across this short video on vibeke beautiful blog and found myself in tears, it made me want to understand the reason why i reacted to it so powerfully. some wonderful acts of kindness have been happening to me as well and i found myself feeling anxious  what is it in me that deserves this and what in me feels like i dont. so you see lots of thinking.

also do you remember that fall i took a few months ago were i made myself my own sling to hold my elbow, well it turns out that i did damage it pretty bad and i need to have it fixed. being here on the farm trying to do the things i need to do with one arm was not an option but now i realize that i might have made a mistake in waiting so i am hoping to do all  the things require two arms in the few days before heading to dr. to have it taken care of.

i have done a lot of driving in the last few weeks and just in the last thirty six hours. i like being in the car
and call it my think tank and i am glad that i had some space away form internet, telephone and other machine distractions that i just want to take a little more time. i started to think where do people get their alone time. i never see anyone walking without looking down at their phone, or dinning without it, it seems like we have forgot to be comfortable with silence, i was guilty with that these past weeks( i have no cell phone-i know shocking) but i very much was  connected to the internet, perhaps not having my camera made me more depended on the net or simply i had forgotten how beautiful it was to be alone with my own thoughts.

see you around the first week of april and please know how grateful i am that you visit me.

19 comments:

Bonbon Oiseau said...

i think that's can be a good thing for you dear nadia--only you know best but I also know exactly how that feels--I am so sorry about your arm! Please let me know how its going one way or another my friend!!! senidng heaps of love to you,
deb

Kristin said...

Oh I'm sorry about your arm. I really hope it gets better soon. The first photo is huge. You live in a beautiful area.

Sarah said...

I will miss your posts greatly while you are away...I always find them very settling and peaceful. I think it's a true gift you have to move people the way you do with your words and your photos ~ that speak volumes in themselves.
It is important to take care of yourself though...personally and physically. I hope lots of healing and good things happen for you while you are on this break!

all my best ~
Sarah

Daniella said...

Oh my, hope your arm will be ok! Have a lovely break though from the net, I know exactly what you mean! Looking forward to your return...

Sweet Life Farm said...

Welcome home! Delighted to hear you enjoyed your weekend and the drive offered time for introspection. What an inspiration the lovely woman in the video is. It held a message for me, a reminder to tune into my quiet compass. Thank you for this, and for taking the time to take care of your sweet self, dear Nadia. I find myself compelled to be in forward motion when my spirit calls out to slow, rest and sit a spell. To stop and admire the flowers and breath in the beauty of the sunlit mossy trees. Oh, the irony, being surrounding by such rooted, serene stillness, my mind still finds space to chatter away like the Steller’s Jay.

Sorry to hear your arm is bothering you. I send wishes to the blue sky and prayers across the wind for your healing. I have seen first hand how powerful loving kindness is. It is of no surprise that it has been heaped upon you. Wishing you time for stillness, to ponder, to wonder and heal my friend!

RetreatingAndAdvancing said...

I'm already looking forward to reading you again. Enjoy your time!

the wild magnolia said...

do enjoy your time away, may you discover more of you.

gorgeous photos, especially the kitties.

Sanda Vuckovic Pagaimo said...

I will miss your posts and photos,but I understand your reasons. I do feel the same from time to time.

Anonymous said...

Enjoy it!sis.. it does kind of take over, internet, blackberry (my personal problem)...etc...read ya soon!

Lucia said...

That path looks as if it was leading us towards peace. Thanks.

Jane Flanagan said...

have a lovely break, Nadia and hope you heal well xx

kimberly said...

Once again you have inspired me. I have been tempted lately to take a break from the internet, to find my voice when it is quiet without external stimulus. I usually find quiet in the gardens but it has been so wet so far this spring so I haven't spent as much time there as usual. I am looking forward to a weekend away with girlfriends and no computer.
Take care of that arm sweet friend~
xx

VSC said...

Congratulations for being so brave to listen to what your heart, mind, soul and body may be asking you for. I hope you enjoy this more disconnected little time you are taking, and you give to yourself some of the serenity and peace that you usually give to us in every post. Best, Veronica.

Clarice said...

I have been following for a few months now. Thank you for your breathtakingly beautiful photos. I hope you find what you need in your time away from this space. I hope your arm heals quickly.

nicole said...

That video affected me deeply too... and made me think about how I live my life. Enjoy your quiet time, and good luck with your arm.

Be well.

eau de nil said...

take a time or two, take all you need, take care of yourself. the machine gives a lot, sometimes too much,
but it takes away too. my 95-year-old grandfather has never known it, instead he sits serenely in the sun.
x

The Wanderers' Daughter said...

As always, your photos do my heart good. Have a lovely rest.

country girl said...

Sending you loving thoughts, and waiting to welcome you back to hear more about your thoughts and see spring on your farm.

xo

Stephanie said...

The car is my think tank as well...if I'm alone :) Thinking of you sweet Nadia...xo