Tuesday, April 26

a pause for a new beginning

my dear friends, well it is almost here. in just a few days we will be living in vermont.  it has been an emotional roller coaster to say the very least,  and i am exhausted- profoundly, yet it is one of an emotional nature versus physical although i do believe it is creeping into that as well.

although the house is not yet finished of being packed and boxed away, i am ready, very ready to move forward.  lately i have begun to realize how i no longer wish to live in the past, revisit it, look across my shoulder at it or watch the play back on my hearts screen. doing this will come with sacrifice since good things happened in the past too, yet for self preservation i must now not look in its direction until i learn to separate the good from the bad, without having to conjure up the slightest hint of things that have brought pain.

i am moving forward in the biggest of ways, i have no doubt some of what i write here at this very minute is again do to the emotional exhaustion but with up most certainty i am ready to except good things for myself and my family. so my dear readers i must take a pause for a few days, perhaps even a week or more so that i can close this final chapter of this book and begin to write on new paper  with new ink, while preparing a home that will nurture those things that bring happiness, gratitude, solitude, awakening and growth.

i wish to see you again, as we begin our life in vermont.


dear readers, if you should need me at all, i am always available via email and will try to get back to you as soon as possible, for their will never be a time i wish not to be there for you.

* the photograph above, was one i often looked at, one of my favorites that i have taken, to me it promised a journey, and that journey has come.

10 comments:

Jane Flanagan said...

Beautiful!! I think it's important to be entirely present during transitions, so think a break is just the perfect idea.

I will be thinking of you. I know moving is always a mixed bag of emotion, perhaps (strangely) even more complicated when you're happy about what you're moving towards.

Big hugs & look forward to hearing from you the other side!

avant garde design said...

beautiful road ahead. enjoy the journey, even packing and heading out...there's a quote i love, i used to carry it around in my purse..."change, when it comes, cracks everything wide open". i love that. ;)

S. Etole said...

wishing you all the very best as you continue on this new journey ...

Absolutely Fabulous said...

on with your journey nadia...namaste

Shivani Ele said...

Ciao dear Nadia...
Reading your words has become my private pleasure - that kind of intimate space of sharing that you create in your blog always finds its way into my heart!
So I will be waiting for you to reappear, full of news and new impressions, feelings, adventures... once the transition is under way! - in my experience, transitions always need quite a bit of time and I actually like the 'work-in-progress' thing that leads me into settling down and feeling AT HOME in a new place!
Take care and enjoy, enjoy, enjoy this great gift that I feel you really deserved!
Much love, Shivani

Ashley said...

I wish you all the best on your new adventure. *hugs*

Char said...

bon adventure!!! hope to see you on the other side! :)

Kerry O'Gorman said...

I hope much peace, love and light find their way into your new home...cheers!

Christina said...

i am thinking of you, my friend.
xo

Valerie said...

good luck. enjoy this new "trip" to such a beautiful place...