Thursday, April 21

a good evening.



last night i was invited for a knitting evening at my neighbours down the road, they have the most gorgeous historical home, in fact the first time Julie invited me in my eyes filled up with tears as i expressed to her how lovely it was, not to mention the landscaping simple perfect.

I walked down with chocolate strawberries in tow, a little parcel of seeds to thank julie fro always be so kind to me. Julie created a beautiful spread of vegetarian fair, i was in heaven. we sat at the antiques table and chatted away, we covered so many subjects, it was truly a girls talk evening. they asked me about my new home and i shared what i could without upsetting my present landlord who was there too.  we had belly laughs galore, and i without a doubt was the most talkative of the evening, part nerves part grateful to be having such an evening and finally part knowing that this would be the last time i would be sitting there. I was grateful for such an evening, a nice way to end my stay in exeter.

* i have chosen these photographs because if i had to be honest today i would tell you that not everybody wishes k and i happiness, in-fact they continual go out of their way to send us not kind emails. It takes me to long of time to realize that people will not change, i always believe they will( why is it always the people you do so much for) but the price for waiting for such change is high for me. my friends remind me that change does not always come to all, that some people do not  know how to truly wish others happiness, but instead want to control and break you down so that somehow they can achieve their own happiness, all i can say to this is, is it working for  you.  I have to believe that our karma has been good to have been gifted such a dream of a place and a new beggining and that i will not take it for granted. I wish those who are not being kind to us all the best in the world, that you may too find peace and happiness but realize such things do not come from making others look bad but seeking out the good in people. these photographs made me smile through tears and reminded me that some people throw dirt to clean themselves and how i simply must learn to brush that dirt off, because it does not belong to us.


15 comments:

Jane Flanagan said...

Ugh, I'm so sorry people are not supportive. I think people always have their own subtexts, somehow think another's success takes from the possibility of their own, like there's a finite amount of happiness to go around. I always think the happier people around me are, the greater my odds of happiness too. But, even without reference to myself, there's nothing to wish for you but unfettered joy! You deserve all of that.

The Oak Leaves said...

:)

S. Etole said...

your photos say so much ...

many blessings on your new home

Ashley said...

I'm so sorry to hear that there are people who are being mean to you. From what I've seen of you on this blog you are such a kind and loving person, that you deserve only wonderful things in this world. I am someone who always tries to see the good in people and believe in them even when they stop believing in me and I know it's hard. Sometimes all I can do is love the good people all that much more because they have loved me.

Also, horses rolling in dirt makes me giggle and then want to brush them which makes me think of how I used to want a horse. Thank you for reminding me of that dream. :)

corine said...

Well I wish you nothing but happiness.

Unconsciously they might want to keep you the way you were: that is when your weaknesses or sadness made them feel better about themselves and their own lives.

Valerie said...

a knitting evening is such a good way to unwind :)
i'm sorry you have to experience this sterile & exhausting behavior/reaction that i'd call jealousy. you may find it is hard for you to endure, but the feeling is even worse for them, it is like a prison.
all the best in this new path of yours x

Dobbie said...

I think your giving and selflessness, along with your refusal to judge people, may have blinded you for awhile from this ugliness you are referring to. But it is a reflection of your kindness, and so we love you for it.

Char said...

like the horse, dust it off your back and don't let it slow your roll. life is way too short to let bitter people rule.

great shots

Anna Allen said...

that last paragraph...oh i want to say how much i relate to this. it is unfortunate, but it does help somewhat when you realize that not everyone will change. and that maybe the best thing to do for yourself is to acknowledge that fact and move on. it is hard, though. especially when it comes from people you love and care about.

i wish you all the luck and happiness!

Natasha said...

This world is filled up with all different types of people and its a shame that not everyone is supporting you in your dreams but you have such a wonderful attitude. I love your comparison to these glorious horses and about brushing that dirt off!
Wishing you all the very best! And happy Easter!
xx

avant garde design said...

well...i for one am more than happy for you, when i first saw photos of your new home i instantly thought yes! sometimes patience is the key, i'm learning this too as i complete my degree late in life and when people ask me what am i doing next? i simply say, i don't know yet. i'm not supposed to know yet i think. it will come. so, yes, the dirt is for others, the only dirt for you now is the beautiful new soil on your heavenly new property. enjoy...

josephine said...

I'm so sorry that you've encountered less than supportive people, but I love you attitude. It took me a long time to understand that mentality and learn how to navigate around such negativity.

Can't wait to see your new home!

amy said...

I am beyond tickled that you exist. You are a stunning character. The images, and words you paint, are far better than most. You are a poet.

I love your blog. You enchant me (:


hope to hear from you*
love amy ^.^
www.amyflyingakite.com

Ms. Becky said...

your photos are lovely as always Nadia. and just a note about the final paragraph - pay no mind to those unkind emails. delete w/o opening I say. it says more about who they are as people than it does about your own choices and happiness. I'm wishing you all the best in your beautiful new beginnings.

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