Friday, June 26

singing and dancing





yesterday an impromptu evening walk with a friend, a late night mocha and to our surprise a giant outdoor screen of willy wonka and the chocolate factory ( the original of course).
yes i know perfect!

but also this thought

i am glad that i do not have television, well channels. i would not want to see all commentary on his death, speculation, finger pointing, people who want a minute of fame. so this post is on what i know;

you made me want to dance a whole lot. you made me want to sing all the time even being tone deaf like i am. you had me begging my mum to stay up late on weekdays to see you perform one of your magical moves and i spent hours the next day practicing with friends and hell yes i can do the moon walk! i watched your videos and they were artistic inspiration- visionary work.

i can not imagine your childhood. we have seen that it must not have been easy and i wonder where was that one person telling you that you were great for who you are, not what you can do. i wonder if your mother ever read you a story in bed. if you had to perform even when you were feeling sick as a boy. did you attend school and make friends of your very own and use tiny scissors to cut colorful paper. i think about your self esteem being a number and how much you must have disliked yourself so much to want to change every single thing about you, i wonder how money and fame hungry were these surgeons that did this damaging work to you. I wonder if you felt real love and had butterflies in your belly. now i do not know what is true and untrue about the things that would make you a monster, i hope not micheal. i hope not. but if it is so i am so sorry for everyone and wonder if you can still make it better in heaven stop the cycle kind a thing. that you did not find peace in your future makes me sad. because when i remember my youth, teenage years there is happiness, singing, being zombies on the front lawn.


thank you for that. now rest and find that peace.

17 comments:

sweetsweetlife said...

Perfect. I have watched a bit of tv and had to turn it off. This is the very best tribute/offering I can imagine. Yes, yes, yes.

Valentina said...

I feel the same way. I mourn the loss of part of the soundtrack of my youth...
May he rest in peace.

dia said...

what a fitting tribute.

cindy* said...

beautiful nadia. i had tears and such similar thoughts.

Nenslens said...

Beautifully written!!!

spread your wings said...

so well expressed - a beautiful tribute.

muralimanohar said...

So well said. I have tears in my eyes.

We didn't get a tv after this last move, and I forgot how much it would be being dissected on all channels. Gross.

simplesong said...

a really lovely post. thank you.

avant garde said...

wow, you really captured how others saw him and perhaps how he saw himself. i do know that he left a creative mark on the planet, and there are not others who've left such marks. so for that, and perhaps that only, i think the world as a whole is sad today.

Mandarine D'Italie said...

True, I also wish I didn't have television,although I don't watch it a lot - but since yesterday evening I can't help watching the news... maybe a way to come to terms, don't know. but these words are just beautiful and I love that you have pay your own tribute to michael- thank you.

in another lifetime said...

Your compassion is remarkable Nadia.

Man in The Mirror was always my favorite song of his, in which he so urgently wants to make things right. I used to listen to that one a lot, it still makes me shiver. "A Summer's disregard, a broken bottle top and one man's soul..."

Beverly Ash Gilbert said...

Oh such a beautiful tribute. I too don't watch tv or even have channels - don't miss it, would so much rather read words like yours.

isabelle said...

what a touching tribute ... and the embroidery above is lovely ...

Anali said...

Such a wonderful tribute.

Fée said...

Beautifully written. So beautiful that I took the liberty of linking to this post in my Norwegian blog.

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