the past, the present and the future.

today, i just had to drive. i had to somehow through  my lens find some sort of balance, peace oxygen.

I was fortunate to have worked in Japan for a while. I remember calling my mum from a phone while walking around in Tokyo  asking her "was i born here" that is how much i felt at home there. I was told before i went, you will either hate it or love it. I LOVED IT. there is something so amazing about Japan  with it's huge population, surrounded by so many people you would think you would never feel like an individual but you do. the architecture is designed with the individual in mind, whether it is where you will rest your elbow as you sit on the metro or how you see a building from a highway or a highway from a Building- perfection. The people of Japan won my heart instantly, yet i knew that before i even landed there because i had been working with a Japanese company who co-workers had become my dearest friends. Japan is a very special place, whether it was my stay in the mountains or the city itself i felt good , healthy and happy there. If i can tell you one thing, i received the so many lovely gifts from my Japanese colleagues but the biggest gift of all was from My dearest Mr. Suzuki who was the ceo of the company who took me under his wing, at times of sheer panic he said to me, "take a deep breath, do not look at chaos in it's entirety but in the task at hand- see through the mess, tillyou see the problem clearely then only then you can fix it". ( he was talking about work related chaos but how it would relate to now) I am thinking of all those who i call friends, i am thinking of everyone.

It is as if k and my life at this very crisis was about to embark on one of our very own. as if a path we where on suddenly was washed away, a path we will never be able to walk down, yet we know that there is other kinds of paths that lead to the same place, now we await till the dust settles to see just what one is right for us.

i care for you dear friends, ran to the ocean to ask it why, why, why but it did what it always does, 

that is, allow me to answer those questions myself.