Elle, the love of my life

I have spent the last few hours going through pictures of elle, remembering every moment.
It is her birthday today, she is nine. nine can you believe it dear readers who have been with me for a while now. For days now i have been thinking about her and the world she lives in. I have been thinking about what it is to be a girl right now, a somewhat bittersweet time don't you think for children.

elle is very special, i mean honest to goodness. She already knows how to recognize beautiful on the inside, but i hope that even though she is so, so gorgeous,  i hope that she gets to hear often, how beautiful she is on the inside, i hope she hears what a good heart she has and how compassionate she is. A world full of gadgets, less and less colouring pencils, muddy puddles, deep conversations that is a world i wish  was a little different, that is why i am so happy that she shares time with us on the farm. I thought about a few things, one how i wish that one day her world, all children's world would be different, one that has no hungry children, no hate, no violence I wish that our generations would have changed the school curriculum in such a way that we would truly make their generation the peace makers of the world.

i grew up with parents telling me i can do what ever i want. be better everyday. my parents had such compassion for all people and all things and this has trickled down to elle in such a big way, her heart explodes with kindness. she is very strong too at nine she knows who she is.

I wanted to say so much, but it got emotional just seeing her face, having all the memories rush in and thinking of her life's path and how i wish i could protect her from everything, but for right now she is the one protected me, her aunty from a life without the joys of children, for in my heart she makes me feel a love  that i thought was never possible.

happy birthday dear elle.

* i could not choose the photographs, i have thousands.