Thursday, December 9

this is the most gutsy thing i have ever done

okay so here it goes, the most gutsy thing i have done on laporte rouge or pretty much anywhere is show that many pictures of myself at once. why have i chosen to do so, first i was awarded an award that would talk about my beauty regime (ha let's just say i would  have liked to answer tea, olive oil, probiotics and working outside) and two because i have had a serious bout of low self esteem( i really do) that  has paralysed me the last few months i would love to share more about it but truth be told i go into a bad place when i do and i am tired of it. i have been unhappy with the way i have looked for far too long now and hope to some how break that cycle- so please forgive me for the me overload! wait why would someone with low self esteem show that many pictures of herself I HAVE NO CLUE perhaps shock therapy:)
I won a 'I love your blog' prize from beautiful and talented  sofia, if you have not visited sofia at "etre soi" you are missing out. etre soi means be yourself i think that is lovely and powerful!

The rules of the prize are:
- do an entry with the prize
- answer the questions
- give the prize to 10 blogs

1. Why did you create the blog?
i had started a blog prior to this one to process some things i was going through that , i had just closed my shop and wanted to gather pretty things for grey sky days, slowly it became about what i saw daily and where i live.

2. What kind of blogs do you follow?
i follow blogs that have a real genuine feel to them, that take my breath away, move me and make me think.



3. Favourite makeup brand?
i do not wear any( i probably should)

4. Favourite clothing brand?
oh gosh. i like the classic style of ralph lauren( it's a good brand for a farm girl)also apart style asked me to be an ambassador for there brand(more on that later)

5. Your indispensable makeup product?
patricia wexler regenerating serum

6. Your favourite colour?
white, more specifically snow white

7. Your perfume?
i do not wear any, but like washing with citrus or mint.

8. Your favourite film?
camille claudel, she changed my life or perhaps what i meant to say  i began to understand who i am from this film.

9. What country would you like to visit and why?
mongolia because, i literally am moved to tears every time i see a photograph taken there.

10. Make the last question and answer to yourself:
why did you except to do this
because i need too get out of my shell, because something has ot happen and i was honoured by sofia's request.

and the 10 blogs I give the prize to are:


if its  all right i would like to give this prize to all of you my readers.

38 comments:

erin said...

forgive you? no, no. *thank you* for the overload. so many beautiful photos. hoping this makes you feel all kinds of beautiful. xo.

Chelsea said...

You are beautiful. Love seeing all these pics of you. I know the place you are coming from but there is no reason to feel that way. You are stunning! xo

Em said...

You are gorgeous and have impeccable style. I hope you can come to appreciate that.

S. Etole said...

You are not only talented, you are a beautiful young woman.

Sarah said...

I have only found your blog recently and don't think I have commented-so hi! Just wanted to say that you look lovely in your pictures! It is hard to see outside yourself, and when you feel low you feel low, but from here you look great! Also, you have the hair I have always wanted-but have come to accept will never be mine! Beautiiful!

Annao said...

you. are. gorgeous. thank you for sharing these small snippets of who you are with us. you are, quite simply, lovely.

Annao said...

you. are. gorgeous. thank you for sharing a little snippet of who you are with us. you are, quite simply, lovely.

The Noisy Plume: said...

You've the most fantastic mane of hair I've seen all month.
Thanks for that.
x

UpGemini said...

I know how you feel... low self esteem is a bad beast. But, HEY! look at your smile, eyes, hair, everything - you are an attractive girl, I am not kiddin'!
You don't need make up, just wear that smile!!! ;)

Cassandra said...

gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous!

corine said...

You are SO beautiful. In a few years you will be looking at those pictures and will wonder why ypu ever bothered doubting your beauty. But first you have to be ten years older.

syd said...

You have a gorgeous smile and i love love love your hair!!

josephine said...

Nadia - You are absolutely radiant! If I want curly hair like yours!

V said...

I guess it's simply normal to feel so low and insecure sometimes, specially for sensitive and talented people.. just like you! Say forever goodbye to that low self-esteem : ) Warm regards and thank you to you.

Juliana said...

You are beautiful and not only on the inside.

Kerry O'Gorman said...

Your beauty was always there in your blog posts and now we also have a gorgeous face to go along with it! Cheers!

PK Studios said...

When you share and bring so much beauty to the world and those around you, your light is always going to shine on the outside....no matter what YOU think.... and you are definitely sparkling! Just keep smiling : )

cindy* said...

you are gorgeous girl! and all of that lovely, long hair...sigh :) xoxo!

Sara said...

looks like i have the reverse problem, i post WaY too many unflattering pictures of myself... and here you are, a stunning goddess, and never post any... bravo for putting it out there! ...just came across this quote- "Beauty of whatever kind, in its supreme development, invariably excites the sensitive soul to tears."
-Edgar Allen Poe

Buccaneers and Ball Gowns said...

I don't really like posting photos of myself on my blog either, but yours are so lovely, maybe I will try to be brave too!
ps. your hair is seriously the best! I am jealous.

Ann Marie said...

i think the most beautiful women are women with dark hair and your complexion...breathtaking!

i totally know the agony of putting pictures of yourself up on the blog...i do it now and then as a bit of therapy to remind myself that in some ways i am beautiful...somehow it works.

i'm debating whether or not i will do this on my own blog...it seems so therapeutic, but, of course, i hesitate. maybe i will get brave over the weekend and do this on monday ;)

avant garde design said...

i have to say i have no idea what you are feeling self conscious about, you are absolutely stunning! not kidding, your eyes, your smile, your hair, really your aura, it's all quite beautiful! it's funny how we see ourselves sometimes, why do we do that? we are all guilty of it. perhaps we all need to post pictures of ourselves. i only recently changed my profile picture from a sculpture to the real me, which was super hard to do for me too! not sure why? have a beautiful weekend on your farm ;)

Sarahbeth said...

ah - I needed this post today. I needed to be reminded that I got into this business (the fashioney one) because of women like you, and women like me for that matter. I can get so very caught up in the heartbreak and ridiculousness of the "fashion" world. I want to stomp my feet and speak passionately about the sweat shop labor, waste, and the chemical derailment of our environment. I end up feeling defeated and purposeless. But today, you reminded me that I wanted to responsibly make beautiful clothes for beautiful women. Who do real things. You are one of my inspirations. Share more of you -you are lovely.

Heidi said...

Your hair I'm coveting and you have incredible eyes!!

Anna Allen said...

oh my goodness, you are absolutely stunning! i cannot imagine how you would think badly about the way you look, except that i think ALL of us women do at one point or another. ;) but truly, you're so pretty and i just had to comment and tell you so! you have a very real blog and i love it when people can be themselves, even on the internet. :) so thank you for that! xo

Christina said...

you are so beautiful!...but i knew that, long before i saw your pretty face. ; )
love ya!
hugs

TheSensesFive said...

Yay curly hair!

Jane Flanagan said...

You're SO brave to do this - I don't think I ever will post photos of myself though I must admit I fantasize about feeling good enough about myself to share a photo or two on my blog.

You're absolutely beautiful though - no need to be fearful at all. Although I know that's probably difficult to hear / believe. But it's the absolute truth!!

Cannelle Et Vanille said...

nadia... you are so beautiful that you don't even know it. love you. xxoo

cindy said...

you are so gorgeous, nadia. love your pretty smile and that amazing hair. no need to be so shy!

Lobster and swan said...

well done for having such courage! and why not, you are a goddess. x

Johanna said...

Nadia- thank you for posting these beautiful photos of yourself and for sharing a bit more about yourself. I have always hoped that you would share some pictures of yourself with us (your readers).
You are beautiful and yes-your hair is amazing- wow!
xox

Marina said...

I know exactly how you feel, it's far easier to love someone else, to see someone else's beauty. Perhaps by sharing your pictures, you'll be able see your own beauty through our eyes. Your smile makes me smile. :)

jennifer said...

Bella!

Bonbon Oiseau said...

you are beautiful inside and out and outside and in. you nadia!

hgwrts4evr said...

You are gorgeous! You shouldn't be shy to show pictures of yourself :)

Elizabeth said...

I will pop out of know where, since I do follow your blog, but I'm not a frequent commenter. I did have to comment on this post.

What the Heck!!! You are soooo pretty!!! You have the most incredible smile, and your hair is gorgeous.
If that is your dear husband in one of the photos, you guys make such a beautiful couple.

I'm sure he sees the beauty that we do as well!

Merry Christmas Nadia

ALITA: said...

Hola nadia, hace poco estoy leyendo tu blog, y realmente soy muy bella, y trasmitis una energia muy especial, tu sonrisa es lo más lindo, no la pierdas nunca... ya sabras más de mi!
un cordial saludo Alita!