Thursday, November 6

dear ida


I would like to have sent you this via e-mail, but since i do not have it i will write it here. I saw your comment explaining why you did what you did. I know it must have been difficult and in my heart i realize how much courage it must have taken to write. I can not begin to understand what your life must have been like but only wish that some how i could have been there in your youth to spare you some of your pain and heartache.

Ida we are both right when we said you cheated yourself by taking what was not yours and making it your own. it felt like i was locked in glass room yelling and hitting the glass and no one could hear me., but seeing you write "i will never ever blog again as long as i live" made me sad i believe you would be cheating yourself in a different way. you see blogging has brought such joy in my life and has surrounded me with an amazing group of people. I think that you must think that you have nothing to offer but that is not true it took me a very long time to believe what i am about to write but i assure you it is true; seeing beauty being able to recognize it takes talent and you have that talent. Many bloggs out there are just that seeking beauty, gathering it, identifying who it belongs to and placing it on their blog...almost as if they owned a store or a gallery and they are displaying objects from artist...then they create such a lovely place that is their own.

Ida your comment moved me beyond what i was capable of, so you definitely are able to write from your heart. while i was flipping through your blog i also noticed pictures of food i am assuming these are your photographs which mean you have a camera..what happens is you seek beauty, recognize slowly you begin to be able to see things that very little people are able to see. Ida i would love to see what you see, you live in a foreign place, somewhere that my father lived but i have never visited you can write about things such as these, i and many others spend many hours traveling via blogs. I would be more
than happy to create a blog header of your very own, I even suggest you name it Ida because it is about time that you have a voice, that you speak and that you share..but that is just a suggestion it is a beautiful name and it belongs to you...

Ida I am glad this happened now, i am for both of us i think we both learned lessons here.

with heartfelt kindness,
nadia

23 comments:

Chessa said...

you are so thoughtful and kind.

cindy : quaint said...

nadia, you are a special soul. i agree that ida should not give up on expressing herself. blogging is an enriching experience that allows you to escape from the bullies into a loving and generous environment. i hope she takes you up on your generous offer.

heidi said...

Nadia... you are grace multiplied by infinity :-)

Ida said...

My dearest Nadia, this post brought me to tears. I was up all night last night because I knew that I had hurt you so. I sat by the window facing out into the darkness and realized in that very moment that my life never would be the same. I remember the first time i saw this blog and how your pictures took my breath away, they made me feel like I was alive, like I had something to finally live for. They gave my day meaning and my sleepless nights hope. Your talent is without word extraordinary and has left me amazed.

When I was five my mother left me and my father without explanation. We found out later on that she had met another love and didn't want to look back. Today she has three new children that I barely have spoken to and me and Her haven't spoken in over ten years. I was her firstborn but out of some reason she chose to forget that I ever exited.

After had spent my night by the window, which by the way is a very beautiful place to sit, I decided to write to you and so I did.

Nadia, my voice is broken. At least it is this very night since I have cheated myself and caused you pain in the process.Please forgive me.

If I decide to share my OWN voice in the future I would be honored if you made my blogheader. I would be forever grateful.

It's dark here now and I am going to go out into the black beautiful nothingness that this evening brings, and thank God for this very night.

All my love, I.

Aran said...

that was very kind nadia

josephine said...

nadia, i'm in awe of your compassion, generosity, and beautiful spirit. this post is the highlight of my day.

dia said...

I am so proud of you,then again, I always am. like I said someone needed help & this is why all this happen(never without a reason). I am sure we all will be looking forward to see & get to Ida's blig when she gets one of her very own.

Mrs.French said...

like I said..."grace and inegrity"...I am so glad to know you my dear...xo

sofia barão said...

what's happenning here is so amazing. Your generosity and greatness of spirit Nadia and Ida's regrets.
So glad once again you are my friend :)

My Castle in Spain said...

this is so generous and kind of you..
the whole story leaves me speechless but I hope Ida will find at last some joy and her own path...

She Who Flies said...

I'm truly truly moved by this. What a beautiful post. It simply spells LOVE out.

corine @ hidden in france said...

This was so interesting. Bravo to Ida for owning this, for remorse, and ultimately courage. But one bit of advice to Ida: though remorse is fine, guilt is a silent killer. i know, I used to be crippled with it. You can now begin to find your own voice, please don't silence it. That would be continuing the work you mother has started!

And you Nadia I am not surprise to see you take the hight road, You're such a sweet-heart... and voted most plagiarizable!

SHILL said...

wow...nadia, you have the most beautiful heart!!! what a whirlwind of incident! and for ida, everyone's welcome in blogland :)

Sara said...

Wow Nadia, what a an example you are of forgiveness. These are such delicate lives I am reading about, everything is so moving...you both have taught me great lessons. thank you

GloamingDesigns said...

beauty from the most unexpected sources - everything happens for a reason. i am excited by the future this story could have!

karina said...

to Ida, please blog again, give credits, make links, look for beauty, and later you would realize you eyes are trained and produce beauty yourself is possible, I did it, you can do it.
i agree, Ida is a great name for a blogger.
To La Porte Rouge, you are a lady who take beautiful photos and a sweet big heart.
Love

karina said...

Sorry, my comment was so emotive that some words were missed but I know Nadia and Ida can understand me.
It is early here, I am starting my day and today I have hope in human beings, this is a great morning for me, reading this warmed my heart.
THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Charlotte Tollstén said...

You have a very big and warm heart Nadia.

Have a Happy Weekend

Ida said...

You are all very welcome to my own place that I have created now at http://mistyafternoon.blogspot.com

I chose to name the blog "misty" after one of my all time favorite movies "play misty for me". I don't know if you have seen it but its simply lovley. And Nadia, you kind heart has awoken my joy to write again so therefore you are especially welcome to my own very place. I would be honored if you would make my blogheader and make it real misty ;)Otherwise I leave it they way it is and hope you all will enjoy reading my words.

I write in swedish but have decided to translate so everyone can read.

Have a lovley weekend!

Hugs, I.

Heather said...

Nadia,

You are a lovely, kind, warm, sweet, amazing woman...and I am glad to know you...even if it is only through your wonderful blog :)

I have always believed that people are innately good...you have proved this.

xo,
Heather

muralimanohar said...

Kudos to the both of you, for the courage to forgive, and the courage to own. This blogging world is amazing.

Claire said...

Nadia you are an example to me.

P said...

I've just found your blog via Pia and wanted to say how touched I am by your compassionate response, and by Ida's renewed spirit.

You have such a great heart. So happy to have found you.