Monday, August 18

Apple tree





When I was young i used to sit in an apple tree in the front of our house. at five i had it all planned, a list of what i was not going to do; smoke, chew gum, swear-and wear makeup ( i think i must have seen badly applied makeup?). I was a swimmer i was either at the pool or riding my bike collecting caterpillars and liberating young frogs from the glass jars that boys in my neighborhood would carry around... and i was fast i would out run anyone. but now many years later some of the don'ts have become occasional do's.

my dreams, they have disappeared some because with hard work have come true and some by chance have been realized...but lately it is dreaming new ones i am having trouble with, have i become jaded as an adult, my dreams are there but they are safe. it is the ones that have me lost in thought, distracted from the everyday, the ones that made me feel like the main character of a goddard movie or like anna karinina...why have i lost the courage to dream those dreams...

i want to find them, that is my goal, my goal is to find my dreams...

16 comments:

Aran said...

yes, do find them again nadia, since life without dreams can drag on forever... your shoes... i must make a dessert inspired by your shoes... those colors are amazing! and i love seing them displayed like that.

amy said...

so beautifully written. i know what you mean. we become too safe with age.

quaint handmade said...

your dreams are there waiting for you to be ready to see them. maybe it's in the shoes - do you see anything in the beauty they represent?

corine said...

if you have the time: http://hk.youtube.com/watch?v=ji5_MqicxSo&eurl=http://zenhabits.net/2008/08/top-5-most-inspirational-videos-on-youtube/

raining sheep said...

Dreams are always dreamt in the right moment. That whole yoga phrase of living in the moment is so important. I think if we force our dreams, then they may not come true. You will find your dreams just at the right time.

Those shoe photographs are splendid :)

Bonbon Oiseau said...

hmmm...i'll have to agree with raining sheep...some of your dreams may be in your photographs now nadia...?

your shoes (and shoe photos) are lovely!!

omami said...

I hope you will find you way back to your dreams!! we all want to!! belles photos!!

mary said...

As an adult, so much can cloud are dreams. I hope you can find them again.

I love, love your shoes! Those red peep toes in the top shot are my absolute favorite! What brand are they?!

Mrs.French said...

you'll find them and when you do you won't be able to stop them. Right now I am dreaming of your shoe collection my dear....

Kathleen said...

thanks for your comment on my blog! those shoes are beautiful, i wish i had even one pair in that collection.

Hila said...

all those beautiful shoes!

please sir said...

I feel the same way. As I have grown up, my dreams seem to be less exciting...and more like I hope I can pay my bills this month. Are those your shoes in that cupboard? I really love them, and the idea!

Camille said...

You always know in your heart what it is you dream. Have courage and dare to live in the light cast by those dreams and cast away the dullness of mere survival.

Again, your photos transport me..and they are shoes..wonderful!

pia said...

first of all i must say, a dessert by aran inspired by your shoes, what a wonderful fanciful, fabulous idea!

But back onto the topic of finding one's dreams - I had this discussion with my mum a few years back and she had said she has lost her dreams, and lost the desire to dream. And I know this comes from pain. For her, it is from her long battle with physical pain.

Perhaps your dreams have been misplaced and I think you are already in the midst of finding them again. Enjoy the journey to them, dear Nadia. xx

nadia said...

I think you guys are wonderful
thank you for your kindness.

iview said...

wow - i love these photos!