in the garden

i am going to help a friend decorate her farm stand today. then i will meet a friend who's birthday i missed. today it is rainy and grey the kind of day i like being home, playing in the garden in the rain is the best. wearing your hunter wellies in the mud( dr. forbid me to wear them, he has no idea what he is asking of me) all the flowers look so wonderful in the rain-oh to be home.

a good friend

yesterday k and i headed into the city. we ate falafel's, hummus, got a mocha, stopped at ben & jerrys for k's. favourite ice cream and cuddled bellow the avon cinema sign waiting to see "babies". my friend sheila pregnant seven days past her due date surprised us along with her husband roger by excepting our invitation to the movies! can i just tell you how wonderful & kind she is not to mention how radiant she looks. i am really at awe and how lovely she has carried her first baby and now as she waits for her little boy who seems to want to linger in her belly just a little longer i am reminded how lucky it is for me to be able to call such a wonderful person a dear friend. i could not help but wonder what a mum and dad to be was thinking and feeling when watching " Babies" such a wonderful documentary following the lives of four babies from different corners of the world.

p.s. little guy you will love it in the embrace of your mom and dad so whenever you are ready i know they will be.

* photographs a shoot i did with sheila last year in my studio

a bit of the house in the morning for mum

my mum has been asking for pictures of the house. i am having trouble putting time into the interior. i guess i am waiting for the new addition design and till i really figure a few things out. although the house is an old farm house it has been completely redone and for me poses a design problem because i have always relied on interior architecture and texture to do the work for me. here is a bit but again it is no where near what i would like it to be.( so lets make this the before )

* i love how only the yellow table was highlighted by the sun- good thing to hope to keep this lavender plant alive!

when you take the dirt road

Yesterday i went straight i did not know why for i was running late yet the thundering clouds did not sway me. i stumbled upon a gift bestowed by mother nature, she has been very generous to me my whole life. this dirt road framed by tall trees and covered by fog was as if my notes of a perfect road played right before me. was i dreaming no, but was it a dream yes.

friendship

yesterday i was able to put splash with tolstoy. i can not express how beautiful it was to see these horses together. tolstoy was beaming, you could tell how happy he was too finally after to many years deprived to able to give him a forever friend. they both got down and rolled in the dirt at the very same time it was the most beautiful thing to watch- honestly these giants jsut rolled almost touching while they did. in life we make so many decision for our animals whether a dog or horse to be able to give to them a companion of their own kind, is the kindest and more rewarding thing we can do.

when songs make you happy

this song has been playing in the background of my days -it makes me happy.

*edward sharpe & the magnetic zeros

when all i see in her is beautiful

she had inspired me with the way she lived everyday, then she inspired me by living, today she inspires me and teaches me to not doubt the strength and beauty that comes with moving forward and she does all of it so graciously!

* i understand there is a heavy religion presence in this piece. but what i see is we all believe in something whether it is when we blow out candles, or count pettles on a flower or find a four leaf clover, or ask the sky for help in a dark hour or thank something for making us safe. it seems to me it all starts from the same place " we believe in the possibilty ...."

Living in a tent : post remembered may 11, 2009

I am not sure if it is the warm breeze that we are experiencing as of late or the lack of quietness and solitude i am missing that has me remembering this time last year. i want to do it again, i do, but with a new farm, new horses and babies of all kinds make's this want impossible. perhaps i can convince k just one night this weekend lets pitch our tent by the sea, sit by the fire and listen to the quietness quietely...







yes it is true and loving it. living in a tent. why not staying in a tent or gone camping, why have i chosen to write
i am living in a tent, simply because that is what i am doing. i am not on vacation well that could be debatable, my husband goes to work every morning. we go on with our everyday business the difference is i sleep in a tent, cook on an open fire.

I could use up alot of this post telling you how this came about but i have decided not to get into it except to say, that i did not take into consideration the “what ifs” i could hardly be blamed for it since i have been taught not to, but i am fully responsible for it, yet i believe it is exactly where i am meant to be.

we drove-away from our house on saturday after spending many days and hours cleaning organizing. i wanted it to be perfect for the guest that would be staying at our home. I have many mixed feelings about if i did enough and if the house was good enough. all i knew now was i was exhausted and time had run out. we drove away leaving the lilacs behind. stopped to say by to friends and got the longest overdue mocha. I was relieved i had wanted this moment to come, to tired to beat myself up. K and i chatted as my eyes opened and shut. he took my hand in his and said you are tired ..yes i answered and asked if it was okay to put my feet on the dashboard( a pet peeve of his) and he said of course i stared at my purple shoes facing the sky and shut my eyes again.

Arriving at our destination as the sun started to prepare for it’s exit and the ocean breeze caressed my arm as i swayed it from front to back, i knew it was all going to be okay, perhaps even better than okay.

little lives all around us.

i have three ducklings and three chicks in the house that we received from our neighbors. my hen sasha just gave birth to four chicks and she is sitting on three more eggs. she rejected a chick this morning it is so tiny( pictures maybe another day) and is doing good under the heat lamp. this is so new to us but it is so lovely to watch. we could see the tiny beaks coming through the shell-miracle -it all feels like miracles. k. and i are amazed by the whole process and we are definitely acting like grandparents!

*the rooster is liev he was a gift from my neighbor we introduced him to sasha a gift from another neighbor- i guess at the farm you do not give a pie or a bottle wine when you move into the neighborhood!) but she was already knocked up with seven tiny eggs and it looks like many different fathers. but for a rooster he is so kind and has sat with her through most of her brooding and he is kind to the babies- ( sasha was already named so i named him liev)
*sorry about the bad pictures

dawn light and apple blossoms

today after an extremely busy week i find myself wanting to be home. i have washed all the slip covers, scrubbed counter tops, swept floors. opened windows, today it will be about home. knitting, baking, today will be about tolstoy who again needed some tlc last night. today is the " take a deep breath kinda day" but it started with the dawn light and the apple blossoms.

les oeufs de canards et des lilacs

please allow me to indulge just a little bit longer on the duck eggs. i think they are very beautiful, their dark greys to blues have put a spell on me, here i chose to combine them with the lilacs that have begun to bloom. now i must go and open up the windows and let the scent of the lilacs fill my soul. oops il pleut aujourd'hui peut etre demain!