what i look like these days in things & what i have seen

my mum gifted me this gorgeous bag for my birthday, i bought these clogs to lift my spirits with a gift certificate recieved by a dear friend and now i am 5'10" tall! I have been knitting it is calming, i made my first fingerless mittens and now i am starting something new. I am again in love with wool and alpaca socks( just think until last year i had never wore socks in the winter time or ever. Of course my mocha in hans, a pearl ring k. gave me a few years back, a ring my mum gave me on our autumn getaway and a necklace that deb from bon bon  surprised me with on the day i finally got to meet her. Oh and the silhouette that a very talented artist at the broolyn flea made for me.

movies i have seen in the last month or so

I am love( too early to talk about it, need to process but the use of music(instruments) to set the mood was incredible)

Jude( one of the most heart wrenching seens ever  seen is in this film- love the greys)

sweet land ( love the scenery, the relationship and she was endearing)

ondine( i used to think i would be a wife to fisherman, love the greys and life by the sea)

the city of your final destination( i loved it, loved the role of arden( my make believe baby name for sure) her sweetness and her clothing, the property is a dream)

morning glory( we went to see it in a packed movie theatre, laughed a lot. McAdams looked fantastic it was good. i found myself weeping in the car way home for how driven i used to be)

the opened door

it has been raining here for two days now, it is not a complaint since the rain is much needed here at the farm. my mind has not stopped thinking, under a night time sky i pace with thoughts. things happening so fast yet i am reacting to them as if they are not happening at all. they are good changes so please do not worry, i just have to ask why suddenly i am okay with it. a grown up voice in my head says "be wise and know that it might still come with heartache" i know this is all vague to you dear readers it can be nothing else at this time, all i can say is, it is odd to me that one can keep a door closed so tight and one day sunddenly with no explanation to oneself  you walk to that door and open it.

dear readers i love  having you here, do you know how much your presence makes my day richer.

* i think the rain might be stopping since at this very moment a symphony of birds are outside my window!

visual comfort

tomorrow will be big, huge step, a fork in the road honestly tomorrow might just change the direction of my life.

* the top photo of the chandelier in my home, was the very first photo i put on la porte rouge.

home and away

my dearest friends, i have left on a small getaway, hudson valley ny, montreal and.vermont

it is not as it once was eagerly waiting to go somewhere now i get nervous leaving all that i love behind. I will discover new places this i know, my lens and i will see things that will draw me in and speak to me. I will have conversation with my mum that will enlighten me and i will do this all as i grow a year older. i am writing myself a birthday wish "a note to self on my birthday" which is today i will share it with you if you do not mind upon my return.

*this is my first scheduled post hope it works

dear autumn and swappers

it has been very hot and humid here, although the leaves are changing to golden yellow, birds are flying away, acorns are dropping like rain and the bittersweet is popping, oh dear autumn can i please wear a sweater now..!

hi dear swappers it is almost time, are your packages ready don't forget if you can to take a picture and blog about  it what you are sending and what you have received(but keep sender reciever anonymous!

blushing over at once wed!

a few months ago maryhope let me know that once wed would be featuring her wedding that i shot in the spring, thank you maryhope & once wed! i paired a couple pictures i took at her wedding with what i am shooting right now!

for the love of greys

as you know i love greys of all kinds i even find myself more inspired on grey days. grey can be sad but also beautiful. I am learning so much right now, too much at once. the subject is myself the difference of who i was, who i think i am and who i am, confused? i am. Do you ever feel as if you are waiting for something big to happen, i always am and the truth about that is big things have happened all my life and  i am now realizing i have become depended on them to guide me, move me down the road. I seldom know how to live in a conscious thought, i find myself in the moment only when capturing something with my lens, even these words am i now just thinking of them? familiar for i have been here many times but this time i need the grey clouds to be struck by lightning, to loose my balance, i need to brake to have my talking be what i am thinking and what i am thinking  to be what i am doing.

dear bach

My dear man

I have a confession no other man, no other person can bring me to the place you bring with prelude suite number one. Today it took me right to you. I am by your side, i am plain, but i am there listening to every detail, i have picked up the sheets you have thrown away, ironed them out with my cast iron. anything about me that was beautiful has now faded but when you play i become her, the girl, the woman, feminity herself. I could stay by your side for always, yes i have sat by anothers side when i was young it was tchaikovsky, then there was the time when the rain fell i strolled with chopin, and the time i cried in mozart's arms so many moments you see i can not lie but today it is you and only you. i know what you must be saying how fickle i am, but truth is i know that you would soon bore of me....listen my love how wonderful a gift you have given me.

smelling the orange blossoms

colorful life

there has been babies, brides, horses and late night picnics on the beach. so for the next day or two there will be, laundry, gardening, cleaning, cooking and ice cold beverages on the porch, oh and hopefully a dip in the lake!
hope all is well. i will be back to normal soon!

scenes from the house

these are a bit blurry but i like them


it does look like the chandelier fell on chaplin, but it was never up.

a bit of the house in the morning for mum

my mum has been asking for pictures of the house. i am having trouble putting time into the interior. i guess i am waiting for the new addition design and till i really figure a few things out. although the house is an old farm house it has been completely redone and for me poses a design problem because i have always relied on interior architecture and texture to do the work for me. here is a bit but again it is no where near what i would like it to be.( so lets make this the before )

* i love how only the yellow table was highlighted by the sun- good thing to hope to keep this lavender plant alive!