Friday, June 28

rain and being in the moment.

dear readers, i wanted to stop in and say hello. i am sitting at a cafe ( waiting) it is bit cooler today than it has been and i love it. rain, there has been a lot of it and begins to create some problems for farmers, houses built of wood and people. I have  needed it, my soul craved it and the fog that comes with it on the hill. my days have been sneaking some time in the garden but starting things from seed late and all that rain, well we will wait and see what happens.  I continue to listen to music, mostly classical and a bit of what my friend Jarrod sends me. 

i also continue to be unable to form long sentences, paragraphs to reply to friends who have kindly written to me, please know that the words swirl in my head and kind thoughts for you  are felt in my heart, i will get there. 

I realize now that  the last few months were so very heavy, being on the move all the time, having people in my house and living with the biggest  joy & risk of my life has made certain things in me halt, maybe you can understand when there is something pending everything seems to be in limbo( i do not like that word) or handle that feeling well.

Yet having said that my days feel so great for i spend my time in the moment more than ever sharing discovery with someone very, very special and through those eyes and hands i have found what i had always believed i wanted without a shadow of a doubt.

I also would like to thank my friend Kreetta for sending me the header above, she attended the Sweden workshop and she is beautiful, funny and crazy talented! i hope to do more changes slowly here, nothing to drastic cause home should remain feeling like that.

Thursday, June 13

strong and music

dear you, i have returned home only a few short hours ago. I am listening to the rain fall, chopin and a bird who i  believe is listening to chopin too. I am happy to be home and the hill is lovelier than ever, even if the grass is so very high. The wild flowers are everywhere and i will take a walk soon, even in the rain.

I met some incredible people last week while i worked, truly beautiful people with spirits and knowledge and sun in their faces. I will tell you more about it soon, but i must tell you about italy first and i will promise.

for now can i tell you about the photograph, i randomly picked it from my iphone and i am sure there is better ones and my camera is filled with them and i hope to download them soon. Iceland is magical, we must go again my camera and i.

I feel very strong right now even though my heart took some stabs in sweden but those cracks got filled with people stories, kindness and music. the whole plane ride home i listened to music, i cried, i moved my feet to the music, i hoped, excepted, dreamt and imagined. I am happy, i also gifted myself experiences like the one above but the biggest thing i gave myself was learning to except that i am a good person, that i work hard and that it is okay to except those things about oneself.

i will write soon, i would like to change my header photograph into a circle of the same and have la porte rouge written in script beside the circle, if anyone can assist that would be great, i am ready to freshen up and re commit to my life being told on the pages of this blog after i have lived the moment.....

listen


3am
daughter
maybe
low roar