still as jam

the weekend is here. this one is extra special, i hope. i must confess i am still not used to my new home. i love everything outside my door but inside i am having trouble but it will work itself out i am sure. the weather is so lovely right now. last night i shared a fire with neighbors, there was giggling, smores and a stunning moon.

then in the darkest of night, well with the moon so bright and my bedroom perched like a tree house the darkest of night is not very dark at all! slowly i began to focus on tiny thoughts and then i gathered those thoughts like wild berries and put them all in a pot to create a jam i could spread thoughout my life.

at the circus

there is something about this picture i love- well of course there two people i could not picture life without but the picture itself tells so much. it is from the night we went to circus smurkis beautifully put on by children from four to eighteen years of age.

again i know it is only one photograph and perhaps it is because it is one of a brother and a sister or because it reminds me of my own youth or simply because i believe they will both look back at this picture and hopefully have fond memories of the summer of 2010.

bucket list

i feel as if it is all going to fast don't you. although my love for all things autumn and winter has me day dreaming. i also know that life is flying by. I started to worry about a lack of plan. i heard a friend say something about his bucket list and a light bulb went on/off- do i have a bucket list and should i make one at this stage of my life. the answer for me is- i better get a move on since some my things i am sure will be grandeuse but others i confess will be so simple that if i try hard enough can happen pretty soon. do you have a bucket list?

the colours of summer

hope your weekend is a good one.

Matunuk beach

I must admit i do not like beaches with people! oh that must sound terrible but you see i have been spoiled when it comes to the sea. We know of a special beach that no one ever goes too where dogs can roam free. I visit St-croix in january when no one but me swims sometimes two beaches a day, i walk along the beaches in october no one in sight and their is the beach house too!. Today we went to a crowded beach, the waves roaring and large the kids loving it, through the crowds i could hear their happiness. I decided to take pictures to distract me from all the people(i am self conscious) but it is when i saw the beach with all the colors of swimsuits, chairs, towels and umbrellas, i realized how beautiful the crowd was!

*sometimes i like taking shots over exposed, hope you do not mind. my favorite is( not over exposed is the grey, pink and seagull)

elle & berries

elle and i went for a little stroll a hunt for blueberries instead we came upon a patch of black raspberries. I love walking through the woods with elle, she loves exploring and discovering the forest floor. when she finds things she expresses it with such delight.

unpredictable and little women

today i learned a lot. mostly life is unpredictable, i can not control it or make it instantly better and that i can be at a loss for words and still feel like i have said more than i needed too. then hours pass by, you find away to make it better and then life being so unpredictable tries to take another swing at getting you down and for moment you believe that it has succeeded. your head now feels like it will explode and your heart feels like it will soon fall unto the side walk. you say to yourself i am done- i want this day to end but still recognize that their was some sunshine in between you say i am going to take a shower and call it a day- then you hear sweet voices that say "auntie can we make you dinner while you are in the shower" and just like that you feel the pressure in your head subside. You remember that you bought the dvd " little women" days before. there you are showered with food prepared with love from little people you love and you are all curled up watching a movie that plays like small revelation and reminder of what you wanted to be when you grew up and now the children make it theirs and dive deep into it with questions about girls in white gloves and scarlet fever and just like that you think this is a good day.

it is all good.

a day at the farm stand

once a week the children and i head to connecticut to help at a farm stand. earlier this spring catherine asked me to help redesign the farm stand and i loved every minute and even decided to sell some of my goods ~. I love having the children there, they really get into it. they greet the customers and weigh, cash out and bag. they also help with stocking the van that is bound to farmers market. elle cuts flowers for a bouquet and dylan re writes the italian ice sign. they also head to the orchard brother and sister walking and picking plums right off the tree. oh how i love the fruits of summer.

walking into the fog

... i heard feet come down the stairs, how could it be? as i looked at the clock five thirty am and i had not made it to bed. I looked outside and there was the farm nestled in the most beautiful fog. somehow those worries that kept me up all night were instantly erased. as i stepped outside barefooted holding my camera i took as many deep breaths as i could- one would not be enough., i looked at it knowing that today this would be my heaven.