un marriage impromptu!

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back from the farmers market.

impromptu wedding

i was asked to do a wedding this weekend. the wedding itself was
planned but me taking photographs was the impromptu part!

looking at the light and angles of my personal life....

i was lucky enough to visit one of my favorite cemeteries several times this week. i have always liked cemeteries, when i was eleven i found an old pentax with film in it. i had no idea how to work it- since the only camera i played around with was a poloroid.i started snapping pictures of squirrels, and that is where I discovered my love for the camera and my love for cemeteries. I posted some picture i took from my sunday afternoon at the cemetery but upon my return i realized that i had taken many of the hydrangea bushes that i found at the end of a path. The light different on all three days both for the time of day it was and the clouds in the sky. I started to think about how we see things. then i started thinking about books like the Great Gatsby and Anna Karinina, two books i have read several times and each time i came away feeling different...okay back to the light and the way i see things and what this means to me...I have no trouble looking at things in different light, seeking different angles as i observe something through my lens. but do i see things from different angles in my personal life. I have always been the type of person that can see both sides of the story and make an effort too, but what about mine? am i looking at it without dimension.flat?

on one of my afternoon walks though the cemetery i was accompanied by what i consider, well to put a title on our friendship would confuse you because i am unclear...but lets just say someone who knows more about me than the people that should...in our conversation he mentioned how he read something about "Libra's that pretty much hit the mark"- "nadia i was surprised how much it was like you" then he proceeded to point out the things that were" just like me" i stood there with my mouth wide open - it was not me at all, not at the very least....it reminded me of the movie "closer" if you have seen it there is apart were natalie portmans character says her real name for the very first and only time to this man but he does not believe her..i felt like that! there stood in front of me a person that i could quiet honestly say i was more myself then with anyone and he was clueless- like somewhere in our three year friendship he stopped observing. It got me thinking about what i put out there.

i walked with him till i saw clearly

this is lovely, lovely. heartbreakingly so.

her lipstick!

the lives of others, a walk to remember and to forget

i find myself seeking solitude, i am alone often, but finding peace is more difficult. at times i stare at my camera and whisper let's escape and before i know it i am there. every click of the camera brings me closer to peace. I think seeing things through a lens sometimes helps me see things clearer...makes me take a moment and doesn't let one pass me by. I can go for hours, a mixture of observing, taking photographs and sorting through the thoughts spinning in my head. sometimes i walk away feeling lighter, other times i am inspired to be better and once and a while i whisper to myself "it's gonna be okay".